An autobiographical record of an alternative erotic lifestyle, influenced greatly by the ‘butterflies’ that crossed my path along my journey. Depending on your philosophy, our lives are but a continuum of accidental connections with others, predetermined before birth, or a journey we choose for ourselves using our intellect and morality. Whatever, your philosophy we are changed by everyone we meet. As a mathematician I learnt that just the single flap of a butterfly’s wings changes every aspect of our physical universe. Similarly, I believe we change with every word and action we encounter from those with whom we share our physical being. My life began inconsequentially, with a happy home life and two loving parents. However, from my first days at school, my life was changed irreversibly after suffering physical and sexual abuse by a female teacher. Every female ‘butterfly’ I met from that point on, shaped me into the person I am today. My path is totally unique, just as yours is for you. However, mine may shock and upset but hopefully intrigue you as it took me down an erotic pathway few men tread. From an innocent seven year-old to a male escort and yoni massage therapist, I trod many different steps to others. My path took me through the ultra conservative post-WW2 years in Australia; on through the youth revolution, sexual revolution and feminist revolutions of the latter 20th Century; then back into the ultra conservative years of the early decades of the 21st Century. Along the way, I learnt much about myself and the erotic fantasy world of the female psyche