Lucy Gordon

Wedding in Venice

The fourth book in the Counts of Calvani series, 2003

Chapter One

"Your trouble is that you never take risks," Dulcie said.

"Who? Me?" Justine queried, her face full of innocent indignation.

Below them was a flash of sun on water as the plane from England circled Venice Airport before coming in to land.

"I'm always taking risks," Justine said firmly. "I nearly broke my neck last month, hanging over that cliff to get a picture of a gorilla."

"Oh, gorillas! Cliffs!" Dulcie dismissed all such trivial dangers. "You're a professional photographer. I know you take that sort of risk. I'm talking about people."

"You mean men," Justine said frankly. "Fine, let's talk about men. They're great fun – in their way."

"When you've got time for them, you mean," Dulcie teased.

"I'm always dashing off on assignments. I have to fit male distractions into my schedule. It's just common sense."

"You have too much common sense," Dulcie reproved her. "It's getting in the way of your life. When are you going to let your hair down and throw caution to the wind?"

"Like you, you mean? One wink from a gorgeous Italian and you were a goner."

"Guido isn't Italian. He's Venetian," Dulcie corrected.

"Does it matter?"

"Yes," Dulcie said, considering this seriously. "They wink differently. It's more intense somehow. You'll find out for yourself."

"Not me," Justine said firmly. "I won't keel over just because an Italian – sorry, Venetian – gives me the eye. If he winks at me, I'll wink at him. If he looks me over, I'll look him over. Then I'll decide if he's up to standard. What I won't do is simply go weak at the knees."

Dulcie laughed. "Just wait until you meet a Venetian."

When they left the plane Dulcie cleared Customs fast, racing straight into the arms of her fiancé.

Justine took her time, checking that her photographic equipment was undamaged. She was in Venice to take pictures of Dulcie's wedding. As she emerged from Customs she could see the other two locked in a passionate embrace.

Justine grinned. Since Guido lived in Venice and Dulcie in England they hadn't seen each other for weeks, and she guessed this bit was going to take a while.

To pass the time, she took out a mirror and checked her appearance, which had survived the flight in good condition. Her hair was red, not auburn or sandy, but a true, blazing red. She grew it long, but wore it swept up. It made a striking effect with her green eyes.

The lovers finally drew apart, laughing and happy, and Dulcie introduced Justine. Guido greeted his fiancée's friend warmly and led them out of the airport, which was built on the edge of a large expanse of water.

"This is the lagoon," he explained. "Venice is out there in the center, so we reach it by motorboat. The barges you see there are collecting goods to supply the shops and hotels."

One barge was being loaded just next to them. On the quay stood a pile of boxes filled with bottles of wine. Getting them down should have been a job for two men, but one man was tackling it alone.

One foot on the barge, one on the narrow stone steps, he swung up to lift a heavy box, then down to lay it in the boat. He looked to be in his early thirties, was tall and lithe, with an easy grace and a strength that treated the heavy weights as nothing.

Justine noted his very short black denim shorts, which revealed long, powerful thighs. He wore nothing else. His feet were bare, and so, she noted with interest, was his broad chest, which glistened in the sunlight as he dipped and stretched to reach the boxes.

His black hair was a little too long, and was shaggy and damp from his efforts, clinging to the heavy muscles of his neck. It made her smile just to look at such intense, masculine beauty.

Then he looked up and caught her gazing at him. It was too late now to pretend that she wasn't studying him. He didn't seem fazed, though. Perhaps he was used to women's admiring glances.

His grin seemed to confirm it. He had a wide mouth, which gave the biggest smile she had ever seen. It was blazing, glorious, lusty with life. And he aimed it straight at her.

Then he winked. And Justine gasped.

Dulcie was right. They did wink more intensely, a blatant invitation that said, "Come on in."

And suddenly she didn't know what to do.

Chapter Two

The boatman's expression and the whole attitude of his athletic body was an invitation to the party of life, and for a moment Justine was stunned. She turned to Dulcie to see if she had noticed the bold boatman, but her friend was busy helping Guido load their bags into the motorboat.

Stop dithering, she told herself. You enjoy a good party.

She pulled herself together and winked back.

His returning smile said, Message received and understood, which irked her slightly. She, herself, wasn't quite sure that she understood.

But she wouldn't be seeing him again, and perhaps that was just as well. He was just a little too sure of himself.

They were almost ready to go. Justine settled herself in the back of the boat and Guido started the motor.

The sudden churning of the water made the barge rock, knocking the stranger off balance and overboard. Immediately he climbed back aboard, pushing the soaking hair back from his eyes, visibly cursing, but unhurt. Justine had a last glimpse of him, covered in water, shining in the sun.

Then she was speeding across the lagoon, looking about her in breathless wonder as Venice came into view.

Suddenly she realized that the barge was overtaking them. At the back stood the man, almost dry now from the effects of the wind, which blew his dark hair straight back from his face.

It was a powerful face, Justine realized, slightly saturnine, yet still with the quality of humor. The chin was stubborn, the nose slightly hooked. Not a conventionally handsome face, but one that would be remembered when pretty boys were forgotten.

He turned his head to give her that marvelous grin again, and she had a strange feeling that he had caught up especially for her.

She mouthed, "Are you all right?" But then remembered that he probably didn't speak English.

But it seemed that he did, for he raised a thumb and nodded.

"È Riccardo," Guido yelled. The man in the barge waved at him, then sped up and passed them.

Justine, who was sitting behind Guido and Dulcie, called, "You know him?"

"Yes, he's -" the rest of the words were drowned out by the noise of the motor.

Then she forgot everything as the boat slowed and they entered Venice, gliding along narrow waterways between ancient buildings in a quiet rhythm unlike the harried tempo of most cities she knew, until they finally reached the Grand Canal. Here was the Palazzo Calvani, where Guido lived with his uncle, Count Calvani.

The count was away until the next day, so Guido entertained them alone. At dinner he was charming company, but he was shooed away when Maria, the dressmaker, arrived late in the evening with Dulcie's wedding gown.

"I came out to Venice for one fitting a few weeks back," Dulcie told Justine, "but this is the moment of truth. Let's go upstairs."

The dress was an extravagant confection in white satin and lace, with a long, wide skirt and floor-length veil. Justine snapped madly with her digital camera as Dulcie turned in front of the mirror.

When the dressmaker had gone, Justine got out her laptop and began downloading the pictures from the camera. Dulcie gasped when she saw them on the screen.

"Tomorrow I want to go outside and take more pictures of you wearing this," Justine said.

The photographer in her was at work now, picturing this gorgeous dress against the canals, the picturesque buildings.

As she worked, she asked casually, "Who was that man who passed us on the water this morning, the one Guido called Riccardo?"

"I've never met him," Dulcie said. "Guido has a lot of boatman friends, so he's probably one of them."

Justine let it go. It would be a mistake to seem too curious.

* * *

They set out next morning so that Justine could photograph Dulcie in the lovely dress against the background of Venice. She took picture after picture, exhilarated by the beauty she was capturing.

"Just one more," she said at last as they stopped in a little square by the water. "Stand by that fountain."

She arranged her shot, focused and took a step back, then another, and another.

Totally absorbed, she failed to notice that she was getting closer to the canal. Dulcie's cry of warning came too late, and the next moment Justine was stepping back into nothing, and falling.

She gave a yell of despair as she thought of what the water would do to her precious camera.

But there was no water. Instead she landed on something that felt relatively soft. Sprawled inelegantly on her back, she had a grandstand view of the man she'd seen yesterday, standing over her, regarding her with recognition and delight.

He gave her a mock bow, reaching forward to pull her into a sitting position, and saying, "It's a pleasure to meet you at last."

Chapter Three

It was definitely the boatman from the previous day, wearing slightly more today: a sleeveless black vest and a pair of threadbare jeans that ended just below the knees.

Close up, he was even more overpowering. Justine had to resist the temptation to stare like a dizzy schoolgirl.

He shouldn't be allowed, she decided. That tan, those white teeth, the strength she could sense in his hand, with its hint of even more strength leashed, the glint of the devil in his dark eyes – there ought to be a law against him.

But if there was a law, he would ignore it. She knew that already. He would ignore anything that didn't suit him.

At the moment it seemed to suit him to keep hold of her hand, although she was sitting upright now, and there was no need.

He sat down beside her.

"Are you all right?" he asked. "That was quite a tumble!"

"Not as bad as the one you took yesterday," she reminded him.

"But I landed safely in the water."

"Well, I landed safely on – cabbages? I'm sitting on cabbages?"

"And onions and potatoes and lettuces. This barge belongs to the Hotel Busoni, and I'm taking supplies to the kitchens."

"Well, I'm very glad you were passing just then, or it could have been really nasty. The water wouldn't have done my camera any good."

"Then I'm happy to have been of service," he said with an air of chivalry that sat oddly with his threadbare clothes.

He squeezed her hand gently between both of his.

"I hope I haven't squashed the vegetables," she said, reluctantly disengaging her hand and feeling around gingerly. "I don't want to get you into trouble."

"Please don't worry about me," he said gravely.

"You're sure your boss will be okay?"

"Let's say I can handle anything he's likely to throw at me."

"Hey, how do I get out? That ledge is way above me."

"Because this is low tide."

"You mean I'm trapped here?"

"Only until we reach the next flight of steps."

He pointed to where she could see steps cut into the stone, about ten yards ahead.

"But we're not moving," she said.

"That's because we've hit a traffic jam," he pointed out, indicating several other barges, bent on the same errand, that were blocking their way.

"Where's Dulcie?" she asked, looking around.

"Your friend is back there. We moved on for a bit after you fell."

Justine could just make out Dulcie standing by the water, at the place where she had gone in. She waved and caught her attention.

Dulcie doubled up with laughter, and indicated that she would walk along the canal's edge to join her, but Justine firmly waved her back for fear of damage to the lovely wedding dress. Dulcie nodded, agreeing to wait.

"I'm taking the pictures of Dulcie and Guido's wedding," Justine explained. "You know Guido, don't you?"

He grinned.

"Everyone knows Guido. He's crazy." Seeing her puzzled look he added, "In Venice, that is a compliment."

"I see – at least, I think I do."

He extended his hand again.

"I am Riccardo Gardini."

"I am Justine Bentley."

They shook hands.

"Will you remain in Venice for long?" he asked.

"I don't know. I've got a few days before the wedding, then I'll stay on to get some shots of the city, but I'm not sure just how long that will take."

"It will take a lifetime," he said at once. "You will never come to the end of Venice. There is always one more beauty to be seen, one more mystery to tease you. So you must stay here forever."

"Well, it's beautiful enough, I agree, and I really want to see it all."

"Then I shall arrange it so that you do."

The lordly way he said, "I shall arrange it," made her lift her eyebrows. Just who did he think he was? And what did he think she was? An easy pickup?

"Say that you will spend some time with me," he coaxed.

He was the most dangerously attractive male that she'd met in a long time. Did anything else matter?

And then she saw something that drove everything else out of her mind.

"Oh my goodness, look at that!" she breathed.

"Maria Vergine!" he exclaimed, looking around. "What's the matter?"

"That!" she said, pointing over his shoulder. "Oh, help! I've got to get out of here, fast."

Chapter Four

"Where's the fire?" Riccardo demanded, looking around to see what had agitated Justine.

"Dulcie!" Justine cried. "Look at her! Oh, how can that happen and me not be there?"

Turning to look behind him, Riccardo saw Dulcie standing by the canal in her wedding dress. A sudden breeze had arisen, whisking the long veil high, so that it seemed to stream up to the sky, making a perfect gauze halo about her. Dulcie's face was raised and she was laughing with delight. It would have made a glorious picture. And Justine was missing it.

"Can't you take it from here?" Riccardo asked.

"I am," she said, snapping away madly, "but it won't be the same. I need to get close, but how can I while we're stuck here?"

"Like this," Riccardo said, placing his hands on her waist and hoisting her up.

She had a brief sensation of flying, as though she were no more than a bag of feathers he was tossing. Then she landed and scrambled to her feet, almost in one movement.

"Thank you," she gasped, beginning to run.

"Good luck!" he called, but she was already beyond hearing.

Riccardo watched her, wryly aware that she had completely forgotten him. Only a moment ago the air had seemed to sing with the intensity of something that was starting between them. He had asked her to spend time with him. She had hesitated, but his well-honed instincts told him she was about to fall into his net.

But she had escaped at the last minute through one of those twists of fate that even the best fishers of women could not anticipate.

And she hadn't even glanced back for a last look at him. Faced with a good picture opportunity, she'd wiped him from her existence.

Riccardo wasn't a conceited man, but this was not what he was used to. Honor demanded that he did not leave matters there. They had unfinished business.

As he went on his way, he was smiling.

* * *

"I can't believe that happened," Justine wailed as Dulcie's veil floated back down to earth. "That would have been the shot of shots, the big one. Aaaarrrgh!"

"It's not fair," Dulcie agreed sympathetically. "Still, you got some lovely pictures before that."

But Justine couldn't be consoled. As they made their way back to the Palazzo Calvani she was still mourning "the one that got away."

It was Riccardo's fault, of course. If he hadn't kept her talking she would have been back to work in moments.

I hope his vegetables rot, she thought grumpily.

As soon as they reached the palazzo, Dulcie changed out of the wedding dress and settled it on its stand to await the big day. Then she went to Justine's room, and found her downloading the morning's work.

"Guido's gone to collect Uncle Francesco and Liza from the airport," she said. "I'm longing for you to meet them."

"They're getting married the day before you, right?"

"Right. It's such a romantic story. They've been in love for fifty years, but Liza wouldn't marry him because he was a count and she was his housekeeper. After all this time, she's finally agreed. It's so sweet to see how much they love each other. Guido and I are going to be exactly the same when we're old."

Justine gave a brief, wry smile that made Dulcie cry out, "What's that for? I know you pretend not to believe in love, but even you have to agree that it's a beautiful story."

"I do believe in love," Justine said. "Love is real. It's the 'eternal' bit that I can't swallow."

"Fifty years sounds pretty eternal to me."

"Sure, a fifty-year courtship!" Justine chuckled. "I believe in that. But you know as well as I do that it's when people get married that things start to go wrong."

"Let's be glad the rest of the world doesn't know it," Dulcie observed, "or the human race would die out. Three cheers for men and women getting together."

"Ah, getting together. That's different," Justine said, her eyes twinkling. "I believe in that."

"That's them," Dulcie said, at a sound from below.

She vanished. Justine waited, giving her friend time to greet her new family. Just when she was thinking she should go down and be introduced, Dulcie came flying back.

"You could be right," she said, sounding agitated. "Maybe love doesn't last. Uncle Francesco and Liza have had the most terrible quarrel."

"After all this time? What about?"

"I don't know, but from the way they're glaring at each other there's big trouble. Maybe there'll only be one wedding after all."

Chapter Five

Count Calvani was a tall, handsome man in his early seventies. Liza, too, was tall, thin and frail-looking, but with an indomitable face. Just now, as Dulcie had warned, both faces were glowering.

They both greeted Justine warmly, and Liza summoned wine and cakes from the kitchen. But she and the count carried on the battle in low voices.

"They're talking Venetian dialect, which I don't understand," Dulcie said. "Guido, whatever's happened?"

He grinned. "Uncle was thinking of having a last-minute party the day after tomorrow, then he changed his mind, thinking it would be too much work for Liza, with the wedding feasts as well. He was being considerate but she's mad at him for 'not having faith in her.'"

"But can't a hotel do the catering?" Justine asked. "What about -" inspiration seemed to strike her from the blue "- what about the Hotel Busoni?"

Guido's eyes lit up and he immediately spoke to his uncle in rapid Venetian. Dulcie smiled and gave her the thumbs-up sign.

"What an inspiration," she told Justine. "The owner is a friend of Guido's. The hotel hasn't been open long, and he needs all the work he can get."

Justine was amused when Guido turned his charm on Liza, putting his hands together imploringly. At last the old woman smiled and gave him a light slap, clearly telling him to stop his nonsense. Guido grinned and leapt for the telephone.

A swift conversation in Venetian ensued, after which Guido said, "He's coming over after dinner, before Liza changes her mind. Hey, Justine, fancy you thinking of the Busoni!"

"It's the only Venice hotel I know," she said quickly.

Over dinner she had the chance to observe the count and Liza when they weren't squabbling and had to admit that they made a charming couple. The handsome man was so dotingly in love with the plain woman that Justine's cynicism took a knock.

But she settled it back into place, reminding herself that she didn't believe in eternal love. She couldn't afford to believe in it.

They had coffee in the garden overlooking the Grand Canal, with a clear view of the floodlit Rialto Bridge. Justine fixed her eyes on it, concentrating on the beauty so that she didn't have to think too closely about what she had just done.

What had possessed her to suggest the Busoni? Who said that Riccardo would be making the hotel's deliveries anyway? And what did she care whether he did or not?

"He's here," Guido said, jumping up and heading toward the building, from which a figure was just emerging.

"Riccardo!" Guido yelled.

"Justine," Dulcie said excitedly, "isn't that the same man who -?"

"Yes," Justine murmured. "It is."

The light and shadow contrasts of the moonlit garden emphasized everything about him that had made an impact on her. He was just as she remembered, but more so.

"Justine," Guido said eagerly, "do you remember this guy from the journey yesterday?"

"Oh, we've met since then," she said, extending her hand to Riccardo. "I fell into his barge this morning, and I can promise you, his cabbages are the best."

"I'm saving money on staff by doing some of the donkey work myself," Riccardo said.

He was talking to Guido but his eyes were on Justine, and his hand held on to hers longer than necessary.

"I would have told you the truth this morning," he said, "but you ran away without giving me the chance."

"Plus you enjoyed having a joke at my expense."

"Well – yes," he admitted.

"To think I was worried about getting you in trouble with your boss!"

"I did tell you that I could handle anything he threw at me," he reminded her.

"Hmm, so you did!"

He grinned.

"You don't trust me?"

"Where would you get an idea like that?" she asked ironically.

"From your voice, your eyes, your face. It's an interesting question for the two of us to explore. Unfortunately, it must wait until my work is finished."

It was reasonable for him to put work first, but his lordly assumption that she would wait like a doll on a shelf riled her.

"That's sounds fascinating," she said, "but it's been a long day. I'm sure everyone will forgive me if I go to bed."

Riccardo's eyes gleamed, acknowledging a round to her.

"You are wrong," he murmured. "I will not forgive you. But I can bide my time."

Chapter Six

Justine slipped away alone the next morning. This was a working trip, and as well as photographing the wedding, she wanted to explore Venice.

She called Dulcie to say she wouldn't be home for lunch.

"I'm in St. Mark's Square. I'll get something to eat here."

"You should go to Florian's," Dulcie told her. "It's a genuine eighteenth-century café, and Casanova used to go there because it was the only one in Venice where women were allowed."

Justine found Florian's and sat in the window drinking a sinfully delicious concoction of coffee, chocolate and cream, and listening to the four-piece orchestra playing just outside. The surroundings were still as they must have been two hundred years ago.

If she closed her eyes she could see Casanova, a tall, elegant man in powdered wig and knee breeches. In her vivid imagination, he paused a moment, smiling before he spoke.

"Can we talk for more than two minutes this time?"

His voice was familiar. Justine opened her eyes to find "Casanova" pulling up a chair beside her – in the form of Riccardo.

No wig or knee breeches. Just black jeans and a black shirt that showed tanned, muscular arms. In these sedate surroundings, his look of having just stepped off the brig of a pirate ship made him riotously out of place.

He hailed a waiter and ordered something for himself and a repeat of her order.

"You shouldn't have done that," she said urgently. "I swore I'd only allow myself one."

"I think you can afford the calories," he said with an admiring look at her tiny waist and long legs.

She was used to that kind of look, but this was different, as though he had taken in everything about her in one instant. She hoped she didn't look self-conscious.

"I'm sorry about my little deception," he said.

She gave a rueful smile.

"You don't expect to find a hotel owner collecting his own vegetables. And you were so convincing as a bargee. You swung me up onto the bank as if I weighed nothing."

He laughed and flexed his biceps theatrically. "No problem. I developed these tossing sacks of potatoes around."

She joined in his laughter, but regarded him wryly.

"I see. Women, potatoes – it's all one, huh?"

His eyes gleamed with pure mischief. "Oh, no! Not at all. Between a sack of potatoes and a woman – well, one is a lot more fun than the other."

She felt a sudden flicker of self-consciousness, and was annoyed at herself. For Pete's sake, she was a woman of the world, not a blushing violet! She'd known where this might lead as soon as their eyes met on the lagoon the first day.

But the word "fun," signposting the way ahead, had almost caught her unaware.

Yes, he would be fun, she thought, considering him. The whipcord strength of that easy, loose-limbed body, the sensual light in his eyes, his air of devilment.

Fun. But also a great deal more.

"It's early days for the hotel," he said, apparently not seeing her turmoil, or choosing not to see it. "I turn my hand to most things. Tomorrow night I shall be serving food at the Calvani party."

He watched as she sipped the sweet drink he had ordered for her.

"You never really answered my question yesterday," he said. "How long do you mean to stay in Venice?"

"You practically answered it yourself."

"Yes, I told you that you should stay forever. I'm afraid I tend to arrange people's lives for them, like a dictator. But only the ones I like."

"I don't know how long I'll be here," she said, not answering this directly.

"Is there nobody waiting for you at home who will object if you stay away too long?"

"No," she said wryly. "There is nobody who will object if I stay away too long."

"There ought to be. Please excuse me – I told you I was a dictator. To me it is so clear that you are a woman who should not live alone -"

"But perhaps it's my choice, and then you really are being a dictator."

"Is it your choice?"

"I'm divorced," she said abruptly.

"Your wish or his?"

"He slept with someone else. I threw him out. End of story."

"Had he been faithless before?"

"If he had, I'd have thrown him out before."

"You didn't want to try to save your marriage?"

"There was nothing to save," she said tensely. "It was over."

"So quickly? So easily? So ruthlessly?"

The last word was like a dagger.

"I really have to go," she said, rising. "Thank you for the coffee."

"Are you offended with me?"

"Yes. You have no right to – Never mind."

She fled without a backward look.

Chapter Seven

Justine spent the rest of that afternoon in St. Mark's Basilica, judging angles, working hard to put Riccardo out of her mind by sheer force of will.

But when she returned to the Palazzo Calvani, Dulcie was bubbling with the day's events.

"Riccardo came this morning to check things for the party. I was just talking to him when you called."

So their meeting had been no accident. He had known where to find her. The thought gave her a strange feeling.

* * *

The palazzo was filling up with guests. On the day of the party several of the count's cousins arrived from distant parts of Italy.

Once, looking out of a window, Justine saw Riccardo arrive in a barge laden with food and two members of his staff. She turned away quickly. She did not want to think about him. He had left her thoughts in turmoil with his casually cruel remarks.

So easily! So ruthlessly!

What did he know?

"You look upset," Dulcie said.

"It's just that I found myself talking about Neil yesterday. Now I wish I hadn't."

"Do you regret divorcing him so fast?"

"Not you, too! I did what had to be done. That was it."

More guests arrived and Dulcie went down to greet them, leaving Justine with her thoughts.

It had been a mistake to marry Neil – she'd known that even on the wedding day. They were in love, but she didn't believe in love – not the lasting kind. How could she when her parents' divorce had left her homeless? Both of them had remarried, and she had been shunted around to a series of aunts, "until things settle down."

But things had never settled down. Eventually she'd realized that there was no place for her in either home. After that she had set her face against the world.

She had an eye for shape and color, which had made her a success as a photographer. As her success grew, so did her social life. She was beautiful. Men wanted her. And that was fine, as long as they didn't ask for her heart as well.

She had locked that up in a safe, bolted, barred and labeled Do Not Touch.

With Neil she'd taken the risk, and it had been a mistake. Luckily they'd both seen the light in time. They'd had a nice, civilized divorce, and in future she would stick to adventures.

Riccardo should have been an adventure. But he wouldn't stay in his right place. A few moments of alarming insight had turned him into a threat.

For dinner she put on a figure-hugging cream dress cunningly contrived to be demure and enticing at once. Around her neck she wore a chain of solid gold. With her dramatic red hair, the effect was striking.

"You'll have them all at your feet," Dulcie had predicted earlier, chuckling.

But the first one at her feet was Riccardo, literally. He was waiting at the foot of the grand staircase as she descended. He was more formally dressed now, in black trousers, snowy shirt and black tie.

As she neared, she waited for his grin of lusty appreciation, but tonight his demeanor was grave and gentle.

"I won't keep you a moment," he said quietly. "I had to tell you that I'm sorry for having distressed you yesterday."

"You're very kind, but I wasn't distressed," she said, trying to sound cool and indifferent.

"Forgive me, but I know that you were, otherwise you would not have run away."

"I did not run away," she said, her temper rising as she began to feel threatened again. "I had work to do. End of story."

"Do you know how often you use that expression?" he asked softly. "Always you try to bring the story to an end at the moment of your choosing. But nobody can do that. The story ends when it ends."

"And do you know how often you lecture me?" she asked, speaking in a furious whisper.

"I'm sorry. Yes, that is a fault of mine."

"Why do you think you have the right?"

"Because you matter," he said simply.

"No, I do not matter to you, and you do not matter to me. Please let me pass."

He stood back and inclined his head politely.

"As the signora pleases."

She stared, shocked. He'd reminded her that tonight he was here as a servant. Perhaps he thought she was a snob who'd cold-shouldered him on that account. But before she could tell him he was wrong, Dulcie called back from the door, "Justine, come and meet somebody."

She smiled, hurried across to where boats were drawing up at the palazzo's landing stage, and was engulfed in cheerful greetings.

When she next looked, Riccardo had gone.

Chapter Eight

A party in the Palazzo Calvani was a step back into an age of elegance. Thirty people dined at the long rosewood table, eating off Sèvres porcelain and drinking from crystal etched with the Calvani crest.

Riccardo had prepared a banquet fit for a king. It was served by the palazzo servants, but under his eagle eyes. As he had told Justine, tonight he was the headwaiter.

It was Justine's first experience of Venetian cuisine, and she promised herself it wouldn't be the last. A dish of sardines in onions, pine seeds and sultanas was only the start. After that there was squid in tomato sauce, pork loins with Swiss cheese and shallots, with pears in hot chocolate to follow.

Clearly, whatever else he was economizing on, Riccardo had hired a superlative chef. There was more to him, she realized, than a lusty charmer. There was also a serious businessman who knew exactly what he was doing.

She tried to smile at him to show her appreciation, but discovered that it was impossible. He never came near her or met her eyes.

Obviously he'd blanked her out because of his absorption in his work. In which case she could hardly complain, she thought wryly, because it was exactly what she had done to him.

And she would be glad to believe that was the only reason. She didn't like to think of what the other one might be.

After dinner there were toasts, then everyone drifted into the garden to drink coffee under trees hung with colored lights.

There were more toasts to the two brides. Justine watched Liza and Dulcie standing together against the background of the canal. They were the two happiest women she had ever seen, because they loved their men and were loved by them.

Justine's eyes blurred. Just for a moment, it was hard to remember that love was only an illusion.

The evening was breaking up. The guests who were staying in the palazzo began to yawn. Those who had to travel were making movements to leave.

Justine went out to the hall, meaning to go, with everyone else, to the landing stage on the Grand Canal, where the glossy motor boats were waiting. From here she could see the other landing stage, round the side of the building, where Riccardo was preparing to leave, packing his things into the barge. He was alone, having sent his staff on ahead to the hotel.

She knew she must talk to him before he left. As he came inside to collect more boxes she approached him.

"That meal was a masterpiece," she ventured.

"The signora is too kind."

"Don't talk to me like that," she begged. "What I said before – I didn't mean it the way I think you took it. You were right. I was upset with you, and I ran away. Then I was even more upset because you noticed."

The gentle look was back in his face. For a moment she thought he was about to say something, but then -

"Riccardo!" Liza was calling him, hurrying toward him with her arms outstretched. "You did a wonderful job," she said warmly.

"Dear Liza!" He embraced her back. "I couldn't have done it without your help."

Liza laughed and indicated Justine.

"Here's the one you should really thank. She told Guido to give you the job."

Riccardo turned puzzled eyes on her.

"I suggested a hotel to help Liza," she said hastily, "and the Busoni was the only name I knew at the time. I had no idea that it was yours."

"Nonetheless, I am in your debt, Signora. Good night. Good night, Liza."

He turned away and jumped down into the barge. He was going, and she knew that if he left like this she would not see him again.

And she must.

The barge engine was starting up. She had only a split second to decide.

The next moment Liza gave a little shriek as Justine went running out onto the landing stage and leapt.

Chapter Nine

This time there were no comfortable cabbages to break her fall, but Justine managed to land on her feet at the bottom of the barge, steadying herself by seizing hold of Riccardo. He swiftly put his arms about her.

"Signora," he protested, "you cannot go on hurling yourself into my boat whenever the mood takes you. People will talk."

"If you'd waited I wouldn't have had to throw myself at you," she pointed out with impeccable logic. She was feeling light-headed and in good spirits. The crazy impulse had improved her mood.

The barge swerved and with one hand he hastily seized the tiller, which he'd abandoned to clasp her. But he kept his other arm about her.

He did not ask why she had done such a thing, nor did she explain. She would have found it hard to do that, even to herself.

Although it was late, there were still lights on the banks of the Grand Canal. Their reflections glowed in the black water, shivering and dancing as the last boats went home.

"Are you cold?" he asked, looking down at her bare shoulders.

"Not at all."

The night air was growing cool, but she was pervaded by warmth.

Down the long curve from the Rialto Bridge to St. Mark's Square they glided until at last Riccardo pointed upward to a building with an ornate front, and the words Hotel Busoni in neon.

"Mine," he said proudly. "At least, it will be when I've paid off the bank."

"Shouldn't it be the Hotel Gardini?" she asked.

I'll change the name when I feel a little more confident of success."

That touch of diffidence surprised her. Riccardo had seemed confident enough for anything.

He swung left into a tiny canal and tied the boat up at the landing stage. When he had climbed out with one box, she lifted the next one up to him.

"You can't help me with this," he protested.

"Yes, I can," she said firmly, hoisting up another box.

There was a trolley by the landing stage. He piled the boxes onto it and led her down a narrow corridor to the hotel's rear entrance.

It was late and only a few staff were about. The kitchen was empty. By now it was no surprise to Justine when he put on a large white apron and began unpacking the boxes.

"This is something else that you do yourself?" she asked.

"Night staff is expensive. When the last shift has gone home I finish up whatever there is to do."

"You have to work late here every night, all alone?"

"Yes, but I wouldn't have it any other way. This is my best time, when I feel this place is most completely mine."

She found another large apron and put it over her dress. He did not protest this time, but gave her a smile that was different from any smile he had given her before. It was no longer the "come-on" look of the pirate, but the secret signal of a conspirator.

It welcomed her into his world. And she was beginning to feel as if that was where she wanted to be.

While he emptied the washing-up machine of the load that had finished, she scraped plates and handed them to him to fill it up again.

"There's still plenty left to do," she said, "so we'd better do them by hand."

She got busy at the sink, working vigorously, until she looked up and found him regarding her strangely; not with a smile this time, but with a look that was half rueful, half wistful.

"What?" she asked.

"This is not how I planned our first evening alone together to be," he said.

"But you told me yourself, you plan too much," she reminded him. "Sometimes it's better when things just happen."

He nodded. "You are wise."

Still he stood there, eyes fixed on her, until she said gently, "Would you hand me that plate, please?"

"What plate?" He sounded dazed.

"The one just next to you."

He gave it to her. Justine turned back to the sink and got to work, but only half her mind was on what she was doing. The skin at the back of her neck and halfway down her spine seemed to have come alive with the awareness of him behind her.

He was going to kiss her just there, she knew it. The hairs were standing up on her neck with the sense of him moving toward her.

But nothing happened, and when she looked around, he was gone.

Chapter Ten

Riccardo was back in a moment, carrying plates. Justine had returned to work at the sink, apparently unconcerned. But she was aware of him now in a new way. A moment had come and gone, and something sweet and indefinable had happened.

She washed, he dried, and in about an hour they had finished.

"Let me show you my home," he said.

He took her hand and they wandered through the quiet building. It was a beautiful place, furnished in the eighteenth-century style and, apart from a man on the night desk, they were alone downstairs.

"But up there, every room is full," Riccardo said, looking up to the ceiling.

"When you said your home, does that mean you live here?"

"Actually, I do, but I meant more. This building used to belong to my family. I was born here, but when I was six my father lost money on bad speculations and had to sell the house. That was when it became a hotel. Ever since, I've dreamed about reclaiming it, and in the end I managed to raise the money. Now I have to keep it."

"Will that be very hard?" she asked.

"Yes, but it's all I want to do."

"So that's why you double as your own dogsbody? I suppose you live in an attic, too?"

His eyes gleamed. "I live under the stars."

It soon became apparent that Riccardo meant exactly what he said. His home was a tiny apartment at the top of the building, but on top of it he had built a square balcony.

Brick pillars went up through the roof, supporting a wooden platform surrounded by a trellis fence on which roses flowered.

"Here we are up among the stars," he said, "and all around us, Venice is sleeping."

Down below she could just make out the sloping roofs, the little streets, called calles, where faint lights still glowed. Straight ahead was the softly lit bell tower of St. Mark's, the only other thing that rose this high. Beyond it, in the far distance, the faint glimpse of water glittering under the moon.

"Wait here," he said, and disappeared back down through the trapdoor that led down to his apartment.

Left alone, Justine looked about her at the dark blue night, with its faint lights winking like jewels against velvet, and marveled at so much beauty. In the distance she could hear the echoing cries of gondoliers going home, calling warnings to each other as they approached corners. It was an unearthly sound, like the music of the spheres. After a moment Riccardo returned with a bottle of champagne and two glasses.

"I think we've earned this," he said.

She sat down on one of the seats he indicated, and found that it stretched back to become a recliner.

"I often go to sleep out here," he said. "On warm summer nights it's the best place."

"I can imagine," she said, sipping the champagne he offered her. "It's so perfect – almost too perfect."

"Why do you say that?" he asked quickly.

"Well, nothing is ever as perfect as it seems, is it?"

"Perhaps it is, once in a blue moon. But even if not, shouldn't we enjoy the illusion of perfection while we can?"

"I think that's dangerous," she said quickly. "Why store up disillusion for yourself?"

"Why deprive yourself of all faith in beauty?" he countered. "Or don't you believe in beauty, either?"

"Of course I do. How could I do my job without it? I believe in it but…I suppose I don't trust it."

She walked to the railing and stood sipping champagne, looking out into the blue and silver night. Now words felt like an intrusion. She wanted only to let the night, and the beauty, take possession of her.

She sensed him coming to stand behind her. This time, she knew that he would not go away unless she told him to. He laid his lips softly against the back of her neck, and the feeling shivered through her.

He kissed her there for a long moment, while she stood quite still, savoring the sweet sensation, the pleasure and the happiness.

She drew a long breath. The situation was slipping out of her control, and of all feelings that was the one she dreaded most.

Somehow she must be strong enough to leave him now, or it would be too late. Or perhaps it was already too late. She turned to face him.

Chapter Eleven

It was Justine who turned the embrace into a kiss, putting her arms about Riccardo's neck, so that he could be in no doubt of her intentions.

"Justine," he whispered, "Justine…"

Everything he wanted from her was in his voice. He wanted her, in every way, and at this moment she would have given him all that she was, if only -

If only she was a different person, a woman who wasn't afraid to give her heart, afraid of her own self, her own feelings.

Dulcie had said to her, "When are you going to throw caution to the wind?"

But she had learned that caution over a lifetime, and it was too late for her now.

He murmured her name again against her lips, deepening the kiss in a way that was part plea, part demand. She responded fiercely, longing for the moment when emotion and sensation would take over.

But it didn't come. Try as she might she could not force her heart to rule her head. The knowledge made her want to cry out in despair, but she couldn't change anything.

"What is it?" he asked, sensing her inner struggle and loosening his grip. "Have I misunderstood? You do not feel as I do?"

"I don't know how I feel. How can I know so soon? How can you?"

"I do know."

"You can't," she said desperately, trying to make it true by the force of her assertion.

"Don't tell me how I feel," he said quietly.

"But we've only known each other a few days, and we've hardly talked at all."

"Perhaps it's as well. Talking is when people make mistakes about each other. I have made no mistake. I know what I feel about you. But if you wish, I'll wait a little while before saying it."

"And then I'll be gone," she said, suddenly wistful.

"You must not go before I tell you that I love you."

She surveyed him wryly. "That's very clever," she said. "Very subtle. Very Venetian."

"What do you know of Venetians?"

"I'm learning fast. You're great talkers."

"And you think it means nothing?"

"It means whatever you want it to mean at the time, and then tomorrow it means something else." She attempted a teasing tone. "You can tell me you love me tonight, if you want to."

"Can I indeed?"

"Yes, except that I won't take it seriously. By tomorrow everything will change. But tonight is fine."

"Do you think I need your permission to love you?" His voice was still quiet.

"Hey, lighten up," she said, still trying to turn it all into a joke. "We've got the moon and the stars and Venice. Why spoil it by getting serious?"

He didn't answer, just looked at her strangely, like a man trying to comprehend a baffling enigma.

Justine went very deliberately to the recliner, sat down and reached out to him in invitation. After a moment he came to her and took her hand, then knelt beside her and gathered her in his arms.

Now it would happen, she promised herself. Now the attraction that had drawn them together from their first glimpse outside the airport would take over so completely that she could forget caution.

He kissed her slowly, one hand beginning to trace a path from her face, down her neck to her throat. Excitement leapt in her like fire, sending its message in all directions, to her very fingertips, to the heart and depths of her.

As his hand began to drift lower she took a slow breath, eagerly yielding to her sensations.

And then, just as the world began to dissolve, leaving behind only him, it was all taken away. She felt him freeze, then withdraw from her.

Reluctantly Justine opened her eyes and found him looking at her tensely. His breathing was harsh and uneven, and she could feel the strain that racked his whole body.

"What is it?" she whispered. "What's the matter?"

"The matter is that this is not right," he growled.

"How can it be wrong if it's what we both want?"

"Is it? Can you look me in the eyes and say that you truly want me, as I want you? Or are you saying to yourself, I've gone too far to turn back now? Tell me the truth, Justine. I need to know."

Chapter Twelve

Riccardo's words made Justine feel as if he could see right into her. She couldn't bear that scrutiny, and closed her eyes. Understanding everything in that gesture, he rose sharply to his feet and moved away from her.

"This is not how it must be between us," he insisted.

"Why do you have to analyze everything?" she cried. "Leave the inside of my head alone. What happens in there is nothing to you."

"If you were just a brief fling that might be true. But you matter. I want to make love to you more than I've ever wanted anything in my life, but it has to be all of you, your heart and your mind, as well as your body."

"Maybe I don't have all that to give. Why can't you be satisfied with what there is?"

"Because you're worth so much more," he said simply.

He went to the trapdoor and held out his hand to her. "Come."

"Where?"

"I'm taking you home."

There was nothing to do but agree. The night was suddenly dead. On the way down he collected one of his jackets, and slipped it about her shoulders.

"Where are we going?" she asked, for he didn't turn toward the landing stage.

"It's only a short walk. The boat brought us almost in a circle, and now the palazzo is just a few streets away."

"How quiet everything is," she said, listening to their feet echoing on the flagstones.

"This is the best time," he said, "when the people have gone in, and the ghosts come out."

"Ghosts?"

"Venice is full of ghosts. They haunt the corners and the little alleyways in the twilight. But don't be afraid. They're friendly ghosts. In Venice they have known love, and been happy, and now they cannot bear to leave it."

She tried to be sensible. It would be easy to become drunk with the words of this charming dreamer. But being sensible didn't really seem very important any more.

What was important was to stroll through these narrow alleys, letting him weave magic spells around her. There would be time for common sense later.

After a while he fell silent, but the magic continued in the unearthly quiet of a city where there were no cars.

His arm was around her shoulders, drawing her close so that she was intimately aware of the warmth of his body. The stress of the evening fell away, and a blessed calm fell over her. Desire had passed into tenderness, giving her a space that she badly needed.

"Here we are," he said at last.

"Where?"

"The Palazzo Calvani. This is a side door. You must ring the bell, but not just yet."

He stroked her face with gentle fingers.

"When the weddings are over, promise me that you will not leave without seeing me again."

"I promise," she whispered contentedly.

After the evening's stormy, unfulfilled passion, he now kissed her like a boy on his first date, lips caressing hers almost uncertainly, if such a word could be associated with this man.

She relaxed into the warmth and tenderness that he offered, not wanting it to end.

It was he who drew back. "Good night," he murmured.

"Good night," Justine whispered back – with just a hint of wistfulness.

He rang a bell by the door.

"The porter will let you in. Good night."

He moved away swiftly and was out of sight before the porter admitted her. Justine hurried up to her room.

At the turn in the stairs there was a half-open window that looked out over the street where they had said goodbye. She could see the place where they had stood together, and wondered where he was now.

Then she saw something that might have been a shadow, standing by the corner. She blinked, and the shadow vanished, only to reappear. Surely it was her imagination? For a moment she had thought the shadow was familiar, and that he was gazing directly up at the window, as though reluctant to leave her. But when she looked again, he was gone, as elusive as a ghost.

Chapter Thirteen

Guido's cousin Marco arrived from Rome, bringing his English fiancée, Harriet.

Marco was one of the most handsome men Justine had ever seen, but, while perfectly civil, he had a distant air.

"Harriet and Marco are rather cool for an engaged couple," Justine observed to Dulcie. "They're not like you and Guido."

"It's not precisely a love match," Dulcie said. "Harriet is the granddaughter of his mother's oldest friend."

"You mean they're not in love?"

Dulcie chuckled. "They think they aren't."

The last one to arrive was Leo, Guido's half brother, an amiable young giant whom Justine liked immediately. He arrived in Venice direct from Texas, where he'd been visiting a ranching friend, enjoying himself riding and "fooling around" as he put it.

Justine gathered that he'd also met Selena, a rodeo rider who'd made more of an impression on him than he wanted to admit. Dulcie and Harriet promptly settled down to grill him about her, until he grinned sheepishly and escaped.

"I'll swear he was blushing," Justine chuckled.

Dulcie nodded. "I don't think we've heard the last of Selena."

She seemed to be floating to her wedding on a tide of serene happiness. Liza, by contrast, was in a state of nerves, suddenly declaring that she needed help with the food.

"But she wouldn't hear of it the first time," Justine protested.

"I know," said Dulcie, "but she liked Riccardo, so I think it's an excuse to send some more work his way. Also," she added with a significant glance at Justine, "I think she may be doing some matchmaking."

"I can't imagine why," Justine said stiffly.

"Well it's your own fault. If you will hurl yourself into a boat driven by a ludicrously attractive man, spend the night with him -"

"I did not spend the night with him – not the way you mean, anyway."

"Well, you came home with the dawn."

"I bet you were all hanging out of the windows," Justine said wrathfully.

Dulcie chuckled. "Let's just say it's not a secret."

"So he'll be coming here to talk to Liza?" Justine asked, trying to sound indifferent.

"I'll tell Liza you want him," Dulcie said mischievously.

"You do and you're dead!" Justine said quickly.

Her own heart was hidden from her. Did she want to see Riccardo or not? He was dangerous because he wouldn't be pigeonholed, and he wouldn't let her take control of their relationship. But that was the only way that she felt safe.

That day she took her camera and went to explore Venice, thinking that when she returned he would be gone. But suddenly she felt distressed at the thought of missing him, and ran all the way back.

Then, disgusted with herself for shilly-shallying over a man, she refused to go anywhere near the kitchen, where he probably was, and sought the garden.

And there he was, talking and laughing with Guido, Marco and Leo. Worst of all, when the three Calvanis saw her, they immediately vanished with a speed that told her what the palazzo gossip was.

"I had hoped to find you here," he said, when they were alone.

"I have a lot of pictures to take," she said. "I'm hurrying to get everything done before the wedding."

"Of course. I, too, have much work to do, but I couldn't leave without seeing you. Does that make you angry?"

"Of course not. Why should it make me angry?"

He gave his wry smile with the wicked hint of mischief, and she had to work hard not to be melted by it.

"So much that I do seems to annoy you," he said. "I've learned to tread carefully. I'm really very scared of you."

"Don't be absurd," she said, laughing despite herself.

What could you do with a man who talked like this, except smile back at him and feel that the day had become brighter?

To give herself a moment she turned away to lean on the railing overlooking the Grand Canal. Riccardo came to stand close behind her.

"There's something I must tell you," he said quietly.

"What?"

"That I've thought about nothing but you since we said good night."

Chapter Fourteen

"Nothing but me?" Justine asked lightly. "I hope you gave some thought to the food as well."

Riccardo didn't answer at first, but turned her to look at him.

"It's no good," he said at last. "You can't make a joke of it. That won't solve the problem. And somehow we have to find a way to solve it."

"So you admit it's a problem?"

"Of course it's a problem when a man has fallen in love with a woman, and she -"

"Don't you dare say that I'm in love with you," she spit out.

"How can I? I don't know, any more than you do. I only know that you're fighting it – fighting me. And you're angry with me. Can't you tell me why?"

"You know why," she murmured. "I don't want to feel what I'm feeling. I've got my life in such good order, and you're threatening everything."

"No, I'm only threatening the bolts and bars with which you try to imprison yourself."

"You think I want to be locked in there?"

"Partly, yes. Prison can be a very comforting place. You know where everything is. But I won't let you cling to it. When the wedding is over, I shall be back, knocking on the door."

"And you're so sure that I'll open it for you?"

"No, I'm not sure at all. I'm never sure with you. Perhaps that's why it has to be you and no other."

The sound of voices from inside the building drew them back to reality.

"I must go," he said reluctantly. "But I'll be back."

He would have turned away, but Justine detained him with her hands on his shoulders, just long enough to kiss him gently.

"Yes," she said. "You must come back."

* * *

The next day saw the first wedding, that of the count and Liza, a small, private occasion that took place in a side chapel of St. Mark's Basilica. The day after, it was Dulcie and Guido's turn.

No city in the world staged a wedding like Venice. It was normal for a bride to go to the church in a gondola, but Guido sometimes amused himself by being a part-time gondolier, and many of his friends had turned out for the occasion. At least twenty gondolas escorted Dulcie down the Grand Canal from the Rialto Bridge to the landing stage at St. Mark's.

Justine took pictures to her heart's content, traveling just ahead of the convoy in a motorboat. Landing first, she was able to witness Dulcie's arrival at the great church.

* * *

When the bride and groom emerged from the basilica together Justine took her final pictures and raced for the motorboat, to be whisked back to the palazzo and start frantically downloading. When she'd finished, she joined the reception for her final shots, which she took between mouthfuls of wedding cake.

At last the tables were cleared away for the dancing to begin. Dulcie and Guido took the floor, to applause. Gradually the other guests joined them, until everyone seemed to be dancing, except Justine.

The music was sweet and sensuous, disturbing her vaguely. Nobody should listen to music like that without dancing to it.

"You look tired," said a sympathetic voice at her shoulder.

She turned and saw Riccardo holding out a glass of champagne to her. She drained it thankfully.

"Hey, Riccardo" came Guido's cheerful voice as he danced past with his bride in his arms. "Your duties are finished. From now on you're our guest.

Riccardo smiled and nodded, taking Justine's hand.

"Dance with me," he said.

As if in a dream she circled the floor with him, feeling the movement of his legs, the closeness of his body to hers, and knowing that she had been waiting for this all day.

She had expected him to talk, trying to dazzle her with words again, but instead he looked at her tenderly, in silence, until she could sense that he was caught in the same dream.

Then there was a small commotion. Marco and Harriet were dancing together, absorbed in each other as she hadn't seen them before.

Justine remembered Dulcie's prediction that they were more in love than they thought, and reckoned it might be true. Everyone else thought so, too, because suddenly they were crowding around them, demanding that they set the date for their own wedding.

Justine didn't stay to hear what happened. Riccardo had clasped her hand and was drawing her out into the garden.

Chapter Fifteen

The garden was flooded with light from the colored lamps hung between the trees. Guests milled everywhere.

"Let us escape them," Riccardo said, drawing Justine beneath the trees, and not stopping until they had reached the furthest part of the garden.

Once there he wasted no time before taking her into his arms. Justine went willingly. It was no use pretending to herself that she didn't want to kiss him. She wanted it passionately.

He had said he'd thought of nothing but her, and she knew now that everything that had happened to her in those few days, everything she'd seen or heard or done, had simply been another way of waiting for him.

Once before she had come alive in his arms, high on the roof, under the stars. Some part of her was still living in that moment, ready and eager for his touch.

The words he wanted to hear were hard for her, but her mouth spoke to him just the same, caressing his with skill and joy, saying things that could not be said aloud, and eliciting a response that thrilled her. She could feel the excitement mounting but was no longer sure whether it was his or her own. Where did he end and she begin?

"I mustn't kiss you too much," he said at last, huskily, drawing back. "It's dangerous."

She laughed recklessly. "What's wrong with a little danger? I thought you were the kind of man who enjoyed it."

"Don't provoke me, Justine, I'm almost at the end of my control already."

"Then let's be sedate and well behaved," she said, forcing herself to back away from him. It was hard because she was as fired up as he.

She went to the stone wall and looked out over the water.

"Look there," Riccardo said. "Do you recognize them?"

A solitary gondola was gliding out from the palazzo. Justine could see Dulcie reclining in her wedding gown, while Guido took the oar.

"He's got a tiny apartment tucked away somewhere," she said. "Dulcie said they're spending their honeymoon there, away from the world. What an incredibly romantic way to end a wedding!"

"Romantic. Meaning that you disapprove?"

"I wish them well. I hope they'll be the one couple in the world to prove that it can work the way it's supposed to.

"Don't forget the promise you made me, not to leave without seeing me again," he reminded her.

"I've seen you twice since then."

"Not the way I meant. I'll call for you in the boat tomorrow morning and take you – well, wait and see."

"I may have other things to do tomorrow."

His answer was to wrap his arms tightly about her, taking her prisoner.

"No," he said firmly. "You haven't."

"Oh, yes, I have," she retorted playfully.

"Oh, no, you haven't," he assured her just as playfully.

"Well then, I guess I haven't." She smiled.

He kissed her briefly and released her.

"I'll see you tomorrow."

He slipped away before anyone could see them together, and Justine wandered back to the wedding, where everyone was toasting Marco and Harriet.

* * *

She dressed for boating in dark blue trousers and a white silk top.

Riccardo was waiting for her in Guido's motorboat, borrowed for the occasion.

He was dressed in black shorts and shirt, the black stark against the brown of his skin.

He reached up to help her into the boat.

"Steady, careful," he said.

"I'm not breakable." She laughed. "I could simply jump in. Or fall in. I've done it before."

"Yes, twice," he agreed with comical gravity. "It's causing talk. If you do it a third time you'll have to marry me."

She shook her head, her eyes dancing. "A terrible fate."

"Do you think so?"

"I meant for you. Imagine having to marry me for a reason like that."

"I'd marry you for any reason if I thought I could talk you into it."

Chapter Sixteen

For a while Justine concentrated on enjoying the day out as Riccardo gently urged the motorboat down the Grand Canal and out into the lagoon where there were miles of open water, bounded on the far side by the long islands of the Lido.

"Where are we going?" she asked, standing beside him at the wheel.

"We're going nowhere," he replied, putting his arm about her and drawing her tightly against him.

"Where's nowhere?"

"Wait and see."

That was fine with her. Who could ask for more than to drift across the water, going nowhere with him?

"There's some champagne below," he said.

She went down and found the boat less cramped than she had expected. There was a large cushioned space, almost as big as a double bed. In the picnic hamper she found champagne and glasses, and took them up.

He stopped the boat within sight of some of the smaller islands, and they drank contentedly.

"If this is nowhere, I love it," she said.

He nodded. "The most peaceful place on earth." He brushed her face gently. "I love you."

She shook her head. "Don't."

"Do you find it so hard to believe?"

"So quickly? Yes, it's hard."

His shrug had a touch of helplessness that sat oddly with his usual air of confidence.

"I, too, was taken by surprise. You see, I'm like you. I plan my life ahead. I had not planned for you, and yet there you were, at the airport.

"Justine, I don't understand what's happened to us any more than you do. I only know that it has happened, and there's no going back. To say that it's too soon, that we've barely met, is easy. I admit it, but it changes nothing.

"That day I went to the airport, I had nothing on my mind but collecting supplies. Then I looked up and saw the woman I'd been waiting for all my life. She was red-haired and glorious, and she looked me straight in the eye in a way that said, 'Fool with me at your peril.'

"I'd never had a challenge that thrilled me more. There and then I decided to fool with her. And the more I knew her, the more I knew it had to be for the rest of my life."

"Don't I get a say?"

"Of course. Tell me what you want from me. A brief adventure? Fine. We'll have an adventure. And afterward you will stay with me forever."

"Then it wouldn't be an adventure," she countered. "An adventure is brief. That's why it's an adventure."

"And you don't think that spending your life with one man might be an adventure?"

"That's just clever words."

"What you really want is a fling, but flings are for people who can't commit themselves."

"You forget I've been married."

"No, I don't forget. But I don't think you committed yourself to that marriage, otherwise you wouldn't have cast it aside at the first hurdle."

"You know nothing about it," she cried, on the defensive again.

"Then tell me. Show me that I'm wrong."

"I don't have to explain myself to you."

"Not to me, but to yourself. Have you ever tried to do that, beyond believing that all your prejudices had been proved correct?"

"I don't have to listen to this."

"Fine, run away."

Justine looked all around her. Water everywhere.

"Well, I can't, can I?" she seethed. "I'm trapped out here now."

"Ah, yes! I never thought of that."

"Like hell you didn't."

He grinned.

"Will you please start this engine and take me back to Venice?"

"I've got a better idea," he said. "Why don't we go below and have something to eat?"

For a moment she glared at him, then relented. "All right, but it's under protest!"

"Of course. You'll find the smoked salmon tastes just as good under protest."

She aimed a friendly punch at him. It was too glorious a day for anger.

The picnic hamper was full of the very finest from the hotel. As she unpacked and they reclined against the cushions, she asked, "How is it you were able to take the day off?"

"I did well out of those catering assignments, so I could hire some extra help for a few days. This is more important."

As he'd promised, the food was exquisite. For once she forgot about healthy eating and indulged herself. Afterward she was suddenly sleepy, and when he drew her back against his shoulder she nodded off at once.

She awoke to find him watching her and had a sudden conviction that he'd been doing that all the time.

"Now tell me about yourself," he said. "I want to know everything."

Chapter Seventeen

Held in the safety of Riccardo's arms, Justine struggled with memories that usually she tried never to think of.

"Until I was eight years old I thought I had a happy home. I knew my parents loved each other more than they loved me, but there was love to spare for everyone, or so I thought." Justine let out a sigh. It was difficult for her to talk about this.

"My mother used to say that being in love was the most important thing in the world, and nothing mattered more than being true to your heart.

"But then she fell in love with another man, and he became the most important thing in the world – enough for her to leave us to be with him."

Justine gave a little wry smile. "She had to be true to her heart, you see. Well, she was. She made a fine romantic heroine, giving up everything for love. But one of the things she gave up was me."

Riccardo was watching her with shocked intensity. "She didn't take you with her?"

"But how could she?" Justine asked in a rallying voice. "Romantic heroines can't have eight-year-old kids in tow."

He gave her hand the smallest squeeze, as if to show that he understood her irony.

"So you stayed with your father?" he asked.

"For a while. Then he dumped me on one of his sisters while he went out on the town. He didn't want me cramping his style, either. In due course he fell in love again.

"They sent me to boarding school for a while. Then there was some mix-up about who was supposed to be collecting me for Christmas. In the end, neither of them did. I spent Christmas in the care of the Social Services."

Riccardo swore violently. Justine didn't understand the words, but from his tone she guessed it was a profanity. She felt vaguely comforted at the fierceness of his empathy.

"I never lived with either of my parents again," she went on. "Neither of their new marriages lasted. My mother is currently being true to her heart in South America with a man ten years younger. We don't keep in touch."

"So that's why your views are jaded," Riccardo said. "And who could blame you?"

"As far as I'm concerned love is just an excuse for selfishness."

"In selfish people, yes. But love doesn't make us what we are. It merely reveals the truth about us. Selfish people love selfishly, generous people love generously. Your parents were spoiled brats, but don't blame love. It didn't make them that way."

"It gave them the excuse," she said stubbornly.

"But you were married. Didn't you love him?"

"So much that it scared me."

"Ah. I see."

"Don't say that. You don't see anything. I wanted our marriage to work, but – I can't explain -"

She could never explain the fear that had pervaded her. Too much happiness, she had thought. One day it would be snatched away. Watch for that moment, be ready for it, go to meet it with a smile, and don't let anyone know you care. Never, never let them know that.

No, she couldn't put these things into words.

But then, looking at Riccardo's face, she knew she didn't have to. He understood everything. He'd seen into her soul with eyes of love and seen the turmoil of rage, bitterness and misery that was insidiously driving out everything else, until the best had all gone.

"He wanted a child," she said abruptly. "I didn't. Not then, anyway. Who am I to be a parent? So we started to quarrel. One day – one day, I realized that the quarrels were destroying us."

"So you quarreled harder, to drive him away," Riccardo said. "You reckoned that would be less painful than waiting for the breakup to occur naturally."

She stared. "How did you know that?"

"It's not magic. Attack sometimes seems the best form of defense. But it leaves you with nothing."

"I can cope with nothing," she said desperately. "It's what I'm used to. What I can't take is believing in something and then learning all over again that it's an illusion."

"I know," he said gently, tightening his arms and drawing her against him.

In the comfort of his embrace it was easy to fall asleep again. When she awoke it was night, and they were speeding back across the lagoon.

"Where are we going now?" she asked, coming to stand beside him at the wheel.

"Home," he said.

She didn't ask where he meant. A few minutes later they had stopped in the small canal that ran by the hotel, and were climbing up to the stars.

Chapter Eighteen

The dawn came softly and quickly, ushered in by the bell of St Mark's campanile. Justine stood on the balcony on top of Riccardo's apartment, and marveled at the beauty of the morning.

She had spent the night in his arms, not making love, but enclosed in safety. Instinctively he had known what she needed, and had given it to her. A generous man, loving generously.

He came up through the trapdoor, bearing a cup of hot tea.

"You're a magician," she said. "I'm just ready to murder for a cup of tea."

She sipped blissfully, looking around her and down into the narrow alleys. Then she stiffened.

"What's that? It looks like water in the streets."

"It is," Riccardo sighed. "It's high tide and the lagoon has flooded. It used to only happen in winter. Now it can be at any time."

The photographer in her spoke at once. "I must get my camera."

He grinned ruefully. "How did I know you were going to say that? Come on, I'll take you home."

Outside she found the whole aspect of Venice transformed. Wherever she looked the narrow streets seemed to be lakes, and although the water was only four inches deep the effect was still staggering.

Running like children, hand in hand, they splashed their way back to the palazzo and secured all her equipment.

"First we go to St. Mark's Square," he said. "It's an astonishing sight when this happens, and it won't last long because the tide will turn."

It was like that all day. He acted as her caddy and her advisor, telling her where to find the best shots.

"I love this city," she said as they finally sat together at Florian's, drinking chocolate.

He was clever enough to say nothing, letting her work out the implications for herself.

When they came out, the water had gone, and they strolled contentedly back to the hotel. While he saw to some business in the hotel she went up to the apartment and took a shower.

He arrived upstairs later to find her swathed in one of his towel dressing gowns, drinking tea. He held out his hand and led her to bed.

His loving was like himself, generous, skillful, unpredictable. Relaxed at last, Justine responded wholeheartedly, and discovered that she too was unpredictable. It was like finding that you'd turned into a new person.

Dozing in his arms afterward she found her mind traveling along new paths of discovery. Much of her business involved traveling abroad. She could run it as well from Venice as from England.

She woke to find him planting soft kisses on her face.

"Stay with me always," he begged.

It would be so easy to say yes, to believe in the bright dream. She closed her eyes, breathing in the scent of him. Now the last leap seemed not only possible but easy, inevitable.

But before she could speak her cell phone shrilled.

"Answer it," he said. "There's time enough for what we have to say to each other."

It was Dulcie, calling from her honeymoon hideout.

"Blissful," she said in answer to Justine's question. "I can recommend marriage."

Justine laughed. "That's very interesting."

"But something sad has happened. Harriet has left Marco."

"What? But they were setting the date," Justine protested.

"I know. Now it's all over."

When the call ended Justine slowly replaced the receiver, feeling stunned.

"What has happened?" Riccardo asked, with foreboding.

"Harriet and Marco have broken up. Two days after it was going to last forever."

In a daze she saw the bright dream disintegrate and fall with tinkling shivers around her feet. So much for love eternal! What had she been thinking of to believe in such stuff?

She began to laugh, falling back on the bed, contorted with mirth.

"Is it funny?" Riccardo asked.

"Of course it is, don't you see? Oh, what an idiot I've been!"

"Justine, this has nothing to do with us."

"The hell it hasn't! It has to do with everyone who buys into that pretty fantasy. And I came so close – but not anymore. I got confused, but I've seen the light now, and I'm going home before I make a bigger fool of myself than I already have. Don't try to stop me Riccardo."

She waited for him to argue, but there was only silence. It seemed he had accepted her decision and, illogically, she knew a little ache of desolation. If he would only speak a word to dissuade her -

"I'll take you home," he said.

Chapter Nineteen

Justine's flight was at noon the next day. At ten, while she was finishing packing, Liza looked into her room to say, "The boat is here for you."

The old woman bid her an affectionate goodbye, not hiding her disappointment that Justine was leaving Riccardo. The count also embraced her exuberantly, and escorted her out to the landing stage, where his staff had already piled Justine's bags into the motorboat.

She gave them both a last kiss and, turning, put out her hand for the boatman to help her aboard.

"Buon giorno!" Riccardo said.

"You?"

She felt a flash of dismay. They'd said their goodbyes last night, devastated and defeated on her side, quiet and strangely resigned on his. Why couldn't he leave it there?

But in the same moment she knew she hadn't wanted him to do that, and the greater pain would be to leave without seeing him again.

His hand tightened over hers and he drew her into the boat. When he had seen her seated he swung away down the Grand Canal, then across the lagoon to the airport, reversing the journey of the first day.

But something was different this time. Suddenly the engine spluttered and died.

"We seem to have a problem," Riccardo said.

"I don't believe it," Justine said, jumping up and coming to stand beside him. "There's nothing wrong with that engine."

He shrugged. "Let's just say there are things I want to say before you leave. You may ignore them. You probably will. But I can't let you go without saying them."

Before he could say more, a large wave made the boat rock, knocking her off balance so that she had to cling to him. He was as steady as a rock.

"You see?" he said. "The boat lurches but we don't fall because we cling to each other."

"Pretty words, but only words," she said desperately. "You were right when you said that I don't trust love. How can you trust something that's built on such shifting foundations?"

Riccardo's answer astonished her.

"What's wrong with shifting foundations?"

She stared. "Everything's wrong with them. You can't use them to build something that will last."

"You can say that after what you saw yesterday, when we had to wade through high tide? You're wrong, and Venice is the proof that you're wrong. No city was ever built on shakier foundations than this one.

"A thousand years ago our ancestors fled into the tiny islands of the lagoon to escape the barbarians. Here they thrust wooden stakes down into the mud and built a city on top of those stakes that has been the glory of the world.

"You've heard that Venice is sinking, and yesterday you saw it for yourself. She's been sinking for centuries, but she's still here. Why? Because those of us who love her fight and struggle to keep her afloat.

"Does the lagoon flood? We'll build barriers. Does the humid air rot the pictures? We'll restore them. We never stop patching the old girl up, and she's still with us."

"But love isn't like that -"

"Love is exactly like that. People change all the time, because life alters them. The man and woman who fall in love are not the same people they will be when their first child is born, then their first grandchild.

"If the love lasts it's because they've struggled and adjusted to the endless changes. When the foundations move, they move with them, and so the love survives. It alters. After many years it looks different, but it's still there, and it's still love. Don't you see?"

"Yes," she said sadly. "I do see. And you're right."

"Well then -"

"My darling, please try to understand. I see everything you want me to see. But I can't do it."

Silence. Only the lapping of the water against the boat. His face was sadder than any human being's she had ever seen.

At last he released her and started the engine again. Soon they were skimming across the water. Gradually the airport came into sight, growing larger every moment, until he slowed and eased into the jetty.

In a few minutes she would be gone, and everything would be over. Her heart was breaking, but she had no idea how to stop what was happening.

Chapter Twenty

Riccardo carried her bags from the boat to the airport buildings and piled them onto a trolley.

"I'll say goodbye now," he said briefly.

"Won't you come with me to the check-in?"

"There's no need."

"You can't wait to get away from me."

"I thought it was you going away from me."

Justine made a helpless gesture. She was beyond speech.

"Listen, amor mio," he said, taking gentle hold of her shoulders. "I thought there was still a chance for us, but there's something in you that I can't get past – fear or stubbornness, or just that you don't really love me -"

"Don't say that," she cried passionately. "You know I love you."

"But it isn't enough, is it? Too many ghosts haunt you, and I can't dispel them. I wish I could, because now I, too, have a ghost that will haunt me all my life."

"Venice is a city of ghosts," she reminded him. "You taught me that."

"Yes, but I didn't want you to be a ghost. I wanted you to be my reality. Instead, you'll be a 'might-have-been,' and that's the worst kind of ghost there is."

She nodded. She couldn't deny it. But neither could she stop what was happening. It was like being carried on by the irresistible tide that flowed through the lagoon.

"So," he went on, "I won't come any further. I won't watch you get onto the plane, and wave as it vanishes into the sky, because I couldn't bear to."

"It isn't that I don't love you," she said huskily. "Please believe me. It's just that I can't take any more risks."

"What do you mean 'any more'?" he asked with sudden anger. "You've never taken a risk in your life. Even your marriage was hedged around with safety barriers, and they were what destroyed it.

"Do you remember my saying that if you jumped into my boat a third time you'd have to marry me? Do it now. Risk it. Take that third leap, and find my arms outstretched to catch you. Because they always will be."

"I know," she choked. "But it's how I am. I can't help it."

"Then there's no hope for us?"

She shook her head.

"Goodbye, amor mio," he said softly. "I shall never forget you."

He took her face between his hands and kissed her with a tenderness that broke her heart.

"Goodbye, goodbye," he whispered.

She clung to him, wanting to prolong the moment forever, but unable to change her mind.

He walked away from her toward the jetty. She waited for him to look back, telling herself that until he did that, it wasn't over.

But he didn't look back, and she realized that he wouldn't do so. He wasn't sentimental, just a man with a powerful, loving heart that she had rejected.

She began to push the trolley toward the check-in, but every step seemed forced.

She had made her decision and must stick with it.

Even if the rest of her life was desolate. And it would be.

That wasn't a risk. It was a certainty.

"Defense is the best form of attack, but it leaves you with nothing."

"I can cope with nothing."

Not anymore.

In a few moments he would be gone forever. It only needed a little courage and a lot of faith.

"Take that third leap, and find my arms outstretched…"

She looked around wildly. It was almost too late. She began to run. Outside she could see the water and the queues waiting for motor taxis.

He was there, just getting into the motorboat, starting it up.

"Riccardo!" she screamed. "Riccardo, wait for me."

But he couldn't hear her. The noise of his engine drowned her out. She began to run, frantic as she saw the precious chance slipping away.

The boat was drawing away, but at the last moment something made him look back. Justine saw his face, alight with love and joy as he realized what she meant to do.

"Wait for me, my love. I'm coming. I'm coming!"

The onlookers parted to let her through. She sped the last few feet and took a flying leap off the jetty, soaring high into the air before falling into the arms that were outstretched to receive her forever.

Lucy Gordon

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Content

Lucy Gordon
Wedding in Venice

Chapter One

Chapter Two

Chapter Three

Chapter Four

Chapter Five

Chapter Six

Chapter Seven

Chapter Eight

Chapter Nine

Chapter Ten

Chapter Eleven

Chapter Twelve

Chapter Thirteen

Chapter Fourteen

Chapter Fifteen

Chapter Sixteen

Chapter Seventeen

Chapter Eighteen

Chapter Nineteen

Chapter Twenty

Lucy Gordon